So where have I been? Here is some overview:
DaNece and I have ended our relationship after 6 1/2 years. It was my decision, as I am not happy with the person I am right now. I need to find out why and fix that problem before I can be happy with anybody else. We intend to remain friends. Right now I’m not sure what that means, but we will find out in the coming weeks as we redefine the rolls we play in each other's lives.
I’ve moved into town, renting a room from Chris. Me and Scrappy are slowly but surely finding a routine within our new environment. I’m learning to jog early in the morning, and my legs don’t seem to happy about this. I’ve had trouble sleeping which has left me in a bit of a trance for the last week.
Uncle Paul died after fighting bone cancer for the past few years. Mom called on the weekend to tell me he wasn’t doing well. I had to work on Monday, but took the rest of the week off to go down to Phoenix to see him in the hospital. He died a few hours before we got there. I didn’t get to say good bye, I didn’t get to tell him I loved him. I know it doesn’t really matter that I didn’t get to say these things, he knew everything I would have told him anyway. It still drags me down a bit though.
That Saturday we drove to Parker for the funeral. It was a celebration of life, which means it was an upbeat affair. I didn’t feel very upbeat about it though, I didn’t stay long after the service. I spent the next day moving my stuff.
I finally slept this weekend, my body too exhausted to have any choice in the matter. I had lunch with Mom and Nikki for mother’s day yesterday, and then went for a six hour drive which was filled with color. Both of these things helped to make me feel a little more human. I went to a car show on Saturday and clicked the shutter a bit, more from habit than anything. After downloading the photos to my desktop I realized it has lots of outdated software that needs upgrading, and so those few pictures sit dormant for now.
There is still work to do at the old house, as it will be going into foreclosure in the next few months. There is still work to do at my new house, as I try to fit the possessions of my life into a smaller box. There is still work to do on figuring out who I am, but I will now have more time to apply towards this goal.
See how this post is all jumbled up? Yeah, that’s me right now. Still getting things straightened out. Bear with me.